As a 61 year old wife, mom and grandma my many years of sojourning have taught me so many things. Some lessons were mine to hide in my heart, some were meant to be shared, yet other lessons perhaps have gone unlearned as of yet. God knows what my soul needs and when it is needed and His timing has rarely lined up with mine.
In this season I am reminded yet again not to try it figure it out in my own mind with my own ideas in my own strength. My journey of sanctification is purely His work if I am surrendering my heart, if I am bowing low, listening well & discerning His voice.Then and only then will my heart be changed.
Speaking to my younger self I would say……Trust in Him with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding! My younger self might have heard those words and still remained unchanged as change can be slow, life can be distracting and hard. I repeat these beautiful words of scripture often, even now.My soul needs to hear them, I need to be reminded.
My husband and I have raised two beautiful daughters that are wives and mamas now and the Lord presses upon me everyday to lift them in prayer. To pray these scriptures over them that have been so consequential in my life.I see them praying over their own children and I see the fruit of the prayer warriors in them in their mini me’s.In this season He bestows the honor of lifting up all of the grands before Him that they would know Him richly at a young age and to to give them the space and grace to walk the road of sanctification.The road can be marked with anxiety and sometimes pain. Joy and growth show up on Gods timetable and He sees them through His lens of love. I ask Him to guide my prayers for each one of them and to show me how to love them well. That doesn’t usually look the way I thought it might but it is always good.
At many times in my journey as a mama I have found myself on my knees. What I know is that God is faithful! He will never leave or forsake me.I have learned to hold HIs truths and promises close as I have held the tension of anxiety, confusion, grief & doubt at times.That can be a full-time job! Many ask what do you with your time in retirement??Aren’t you bored?
The daily rhythms of my life center around prayer. For my kids, grandkids, friends, family members….Just like it always has.Now I just have a little more freedom in my schedule, space in my soul & more confidence than ever before that He listens, He cares, He acts and He always answers.
I am mindful that it is a complete honor to pass along my faith and share it when needed as I have borrowed faith may times (as recently as last weekend when we asked some dear friends to stand in prayer with us for something that is very hard to stand alone in)
So today I pressed send on 20 pages of a book that I have created for my grandsons 10th birthday.A book that I have poured over for awhile and prayed over as I have expressed mine and my husbands prayers for him. The years of prayers prayed over him have been heard and honored but God impressed upon me the importance of recording them and sharing them with him.My prayer today is that they will bolster his faith and impact his sanctification journey in a powerful way.
